The End of the Beginning

Song: [Allister MacGillivary] | Song for Peace

We've been off to a very rocky start, being shaken so far, but I think we might be okay now. The worst of this wave is now behind us. Hopefully things can be better. I like being in your arms, watching the sun as it moves across the sky. Maybe we can do that again sometime. After crying, the two of us, I believe we can overcome the difficulties and move on. And like my friend said, if we ever meet any future obstacles, we can look back and see this obstacle that we've overcome, and we'll know that we can withstand anything.

Maybe I've been slowly walking away, but I still continued to look back. Maybe I was ready to leave; I had one foot out the door, but you managed to make me turn around and come back.

Like the names written interlaced in the gravel; Amelia, Marilyn, Emily, Shannon, 2010 BFF, we can be You + Me Forever. Not You <3 Me Forever. But I'll stand by you, and you'll stand by me, and everything will be alright.

I am happy.

Life

Song: Dido | White Flag

Life is meaningless without you. My best friend, the best friend I ever had. I don't want to stab you in the heart; I feel like the hunter from Snow White. But I feel I need to get the thorn out of my heart. Only then can I start to heal. But it seems either way, there will be pain. There will be a scar, even when things are over. You make me worry so much. Why did I wait half an hour for you, when I was tired and everyone had already left? Why?

Sun

A friend once said that you cannot see how bright a flame is if you stand near it, you can only see how bright it truly is once you stand in the darkness. He also said that you and I were like the burning sun.

Somehow, I think that he was standing too far away and seeing the remains of the already burnt out supernova.

Pride

Song: Hanako Oku | Garnet

Maybe my feelings for you were pushed to the side and eventually dried up. But perhaps I've been fighting to keep that one drop remaining. The question is whether I want to grab on to it, or to let it go.

It's so muddled now. I don't know what to feel.

Perhaps one reason I want to hold on is for my pride. My stupid, stupid pride. The fact that I wasted everything, spent hours being jealous at people who stood no chance, if I were to just let that all go, my pride would not forgive me.

Why can I tell so many people my feelings, but it is so hard to tell it to your face?