Pain

Even after agreeing to push my feelings aside, to take little steps at a time, for you to concentrate on taking better care of yourself and not "us", it's hard. Such great feelings are hard to push away. I know I said that things will fall into place if you can promise me to take care of yourself, and if my feelings happen to die away before you achieve that, then so be it. But... it hurts so much. No matter what I do, it hurts, and no matter what I do, I will never be yours.